My son is off the hook. With everything that has been going on with him in the last couple of months, he is now able to enjoy his summer holiday with out any worries. I know that seems cryptic, but those who know me will know what I mean as I can’t go into detail.
My divorce has been postponed slightly. The solicitor forgot to tell me not to date the letter that she sent me for the Decree Absolute, so I have had to do another one of those. She sent it to me the day before it was supposed to be sent to the judge which means that my letter from the DSS was out of date as it has to be within one month of the date on the letter so that I can get my financial assistance and not pay for the divorce. I am hoping that it will be through within 2 weeks. KNowing my luck though it will come through on the 18th August – what would have been my 14th wedding anniversary.
These last 12 months have been hell for me. I have made some new friends who have supported me through this, and without them, I wouldn’t be here now. I want to thank my 2 friends in Leicester, my friend in Oxford, one in Cumbria, one in north Kent and a couple of friends in Folkestone who have been at my side in a manner of speaking through this hell and not left me even when it would have been easier for them to walk away than to stay. I know I have been a complete shit at times, and done some stuff that I shouldn’t have done. It would be easy to blame other people for the situation, but I know for the most part it has been my own doing – after all, if I had not been in the picture it wouldn’t have happened. This is almost behind me now. I am near enough back in control of my life and ready to move forward once the divorce is over. I have a new book that was suggested to me by a friend in Hemel (soon to be in Ireland) called Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway by Susan Jeffers which is sort of a self help book that I am hoping will also help me. I’m not going to say that the next twelve months can’t possibly be any worse, as I said that in December and they did get worse. But I’m looking at the next 12 months with optimism.
I have been keeping an eye on my horoscope of the last week or so and oddly some of it has been quite accurate. Talking about secrets that I can’t tell. Thursday’s one said that I would have some life changing news – and I got a call about my son. A few days ago it said that I would be wise to not look for love at the moment (too true on that one). At least I have reasons to smile now and who knows – maybe facebook will be back on within the month.
Horoscope: Sensual Venus in your sign can amplify your desires, yet her current opposition to secretive Pluto could make it tough for you to share what’s on your mind. You might feel as if you are trapped now and cannot find a path to satisfaction. Don’t give up; keeping your needs hidden is a mistake, but blaming someone else for your current difficulty is even worse. Speaking from your heart and taking full responsibility for your own emotions can open the right door at the right time.
Hmmm, maybe I should have read that before writing the blog. 
THANK YOU MY FRIENDS
August 1, 2009 at 17:34
i am glad that things are looking up for u
August 1, 2009 at 19:01
Thanks.
Looking at getting back on FaceBook once the divorce is cleared.
August 2, 2009 at 09:17
I might start one of these blog things…but I am not sure anyone would believe what I write!!!! I can ‘hear’ the difference in your writing already…you know like the way you can ‘hear’ someone smile when they are talking on the phone.As for being by your side…i don’t desert friends just because the going gets tough…it takes the meaning out the word friend.
August 2, 2009 at 15:11
Well you don’t hqave to update it every day. I just do mine when there is something on my mind. Although there is something on my mind at the moment that I can’t talk about. And that infuriates me.