My daughter had her leaver’s assembly on Friday morning, and I went to it. Was very moving. They had a slide show of all the year 6 kids through the years, and although my daughter has only been at the school for 2 years, the change they made in her was worth every day of it. They had a picture of her climbing through some tire rollers on their residential trip, and the head mistress said that she was very proud of my daughter because she would not give up until she was through the rollers. On Saturday morning, I took the children to get their ears pierced as a birthday present from their mum. My son happily had his ear pierced, but my daughter freaked out at the needle 
No matter how much we tried to convince her that it would be okay and it wouldn’t hurt, her memory of the last time she had it done got the better of her and she couldn’t go through with it.
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Most people will know that I have not been having a great time of it recently. I did something that may well have cost me a very good friend, and that hurts like hell. I’m hopimg that when I get my life back on track that she can forgive me.
The problem with counselling is that it is a week between sessions, and now I really don’t like bugging other people with my problems. This was one of the reasons that put me in this situation in the first place, and I want out of it. I know that everything happens for a reason, and that we should have no regrets. Well, that’s not the case here. I have regrets, and if this all happened for a reason, it had better be a bloody good reason. I’m not going to say that I have had no control over what I did, because everybody has control, and everybody has the power to say no, even if saying no is one of the hardest things and you know that it is going to leave you in mental pain. Saying yes may seem like the right thing to do at the time, but look at the big picture – how much damage will saying yes do? In this case – a lot. The aftermath has been something akin to a nuke going off.
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I will say, that when one of my friends spoke to me yesterday, it made me so happy. It meant a lot that she would speak to me. I actually slept better last night after we chatted on MSN, so thank you. 
Counselling tomorrow. See what happens from that.
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July 20, 2009 at 20:37
u know u can always pop my box on msn if u need to chat….i do appear offline most of the time as i cant be doing with all the pervy males on there…but can but try me.
missing u on fb
chat soon
July 20, 2009 at 20:58
Thank you.
I will be back on facebook. But not before you come back. I need a bit more time, and I think other people need time from me too