I have deactivated my FaceBook account, deleted my MySpace and deleted my BeBo accounts. Whether I go back to FaceBook or not, I don’t know. I have created problems for my friends whch is something that I never ever intended to do. I am upset that I have hurt these people, and I hope that they can forgive me. I know they are going to back off from me for a while which is completely understandable. I have got counselling on Tuesday which I am hoping is going to help me. I am someone I always promised myself I woukld never be. As a result, I will probably never be able to go and visit a couple of my friends again, and that hurts like hell. They have been nothing but good to me, and I end up hurting them. 
One of my problems (so I have been told) is that after my wife left me, I started down a self-destructive path. Unfortunately other people have got caught in the wake which makes me feel really bad. Because it’s not just the other person, but it’s also the family and friends of that person who get caught up as well. I never meant for any of this to happen. I always thought that I was a nice person, and I have to get that person back. Until then, I am going to keep my distance for a long while.
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July 13, 2009 at 14:06
tis hard thing to do but im sure once u have sorted ur head out u will be bak…i mean bloody hell i have posted loads of piccys and no comments from u….i miss that……lol…chat soon
mg x
July 13, 2009 at 14:44
That means when I do finally come back, I will have a lot of work to do.
I hope it will be sooner rather than later, but it is not a process that I am going to hurry. I have no intentions of cutting corners. Walking away was one of the hardest things I have done, but necessary.
Thank you x